How did it get to be nearly the end of February already?!
I woke up today with a panicky feeling that this year is slipping away so quickly and it might pass in the blink of an eye without anything much changing in my life. And that is just not on. Because this is the year when everything changes… big time. I’ve decided! 🙂
I want to write more blog posts, I want to create more silk paintings, I want to be able to call myself an artist and sell my work. I want to write a book, or at least start writing something. I want to exercise more, get out of the house more, socialise more, meet new people, travel more, get more done in my days, have more energy, heal quicker and achieve many more of the 100 goals I set myself at the beginning of the year.
However, with all this striving for more, all I seem to be doing is putting a lot of pressure on myself and not giving myself credit for everything I’ve achieved in the past few months already. Like moving into my own place, adapting to living on my own (something that was unthinkable just a few years ago as I was too ill to look after myself). Being able to go out for walks most days, getting out of the house frequently instead of rarely, staying awake during the days (I used to have to rest for a few hours every afternoon and now I only need to do this very occasionally). AND selling my first silk painting online within an hour of listing it. Woohoo! 🙂 Really, there have been so many miraculous, humungous changes in my life, so it’s funny how I seem to forget all about them when I’m looking at things from a wonky, un-Pollyanna-ish perspective.
When this happens I first have to notice myself doing it, which isn’t all that hard seeing as this type of thinking is always accompanied by not so happy feelings. Once I’ve caught myself in the act, I next lovingly tell myself to stop, take a deep breath and chill the heck out. Because the truth of the matter is that I am doing amazingly well. Sure, I’d love to be able to do more and be more, but right here, right now, with the energy, time and resources I have, I am doing the very best I can and that makes it plenty good enough.
Just telling myself that and writing these words allows me to let go of all the panicky, worried, time-is-running out kinda feelings and I can just relax in the knowledge that I am exactly where I need to be and I’m doing just great. Phew!
And here’s what I’d like to say to you today. You are doing brilliantly too. Regardless of all the stuff in your life you haven’t got done yet, or the fact that you might not have things together, or you mess up sometimes, or whatever it is, please stop for a minute, take a deep breath and remind yourself that you are doing your very best right now, right where you are and that makes it more than good enough. Then, think back over all the little things you have achieved this year so far and give yourself a much deserved pat on the back. (And now…..relax!) 😉
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