I’ve been thinking a lot about this blog lately and wondering which direction I’d like to go with it. As you may know by now, The Pollyanna Plan sprung into life in January 2013 when I set myself the challenge to find a reason to feel glad/happy/joyful every single day for 1 whole year and write a blog post about it. Yep, there were 365 reasons and 365 blog posts. Phew!
You see, I had struggled with chronic illness (namely Chronic Fatigue Syndrome and Hashimoto’s Disease – an autoimmune disease that affects the thyroid) for a long, long time and my life had effectively been on pause since the beginning of 2007 as my health got progressively worse. Some days, just getting out of bed and doing everyday stuff like having a shower was too much for me. I’d tried so many different things to heal – I’d been to regular doctors, specialists and tried countless different alternative therapies, some of them pretty crazy and bizarre, but nothing really seemed to help very much.
That’s when I decided to stop giving my power away. To stop waiting for someone to come and make me better and get on with the business of healing myself. And so a series of events (you can read about them here) led me to starting The Pollyanna Plan as a kind of experiment, to see whether the power of happy, positive feelings and a bucket load of gratitude could improve my health and life in some small way.
And guess what? It really, really did. You see the thing with focusing on all the good stuff in life and all the stuff that is going right is that it attracts more of those things to you. In effect, you become an appreciation magnet – you give out those happy, grateful vibes and you attract right back to you more things to appreciate and feel thankful for. I attracted so many things to me that helped with my healing – information, courses, new discoveries about countless food intolerances I never even knew I had and a wonderful nutritional medicine/functional medicine practitioner – all of which I am so very thankful for.
And this is the part where I’m in two minds as to what to blog about. You see through all this I have learnt A LOT about how to heal from autoimmune disease. I’ve been following different protocols, trying different diets (some which have helped hugely, others not so much) and part of me wants to share all of this information with you.
I also have a feeling that blogging about stuff like that would probably get me loads of new followers and a higher profile for this blog (which is a little bit tempting I have to be honest) but that was never what The Pollyanna Plan was about.
And here’s the big BUT about that approach. Even though I’d be writing about recovery, I’d also have to write a lot about illness and from everything I’ve learnt about law of attraction, I know that’s the very last thing I need to be doing. I would be writing from a positive standpoint of course, but I’d still be subconsciously focusing on illness and seeing myself as someone who needs to be healed (thereby attracting more of needing to be healed) rather than seeing myself as completely well and healthy.
Also, I firmly believe that we are all completely and amazingly unique, so even if someone has the same diagnosis as I do, what works for me may not work for them at all. And, believe me, I know how disheartening it is to read about someone’s recovery, try the very thing they are doing and have no success with it whatsoever. So, there we have my dilemma.
But, as always seems to happen when I start pouring my thoughts onto paper (or onto screen, in this case) I have realised something. And that something is that instead of writing about things I think I “should” write about, I need to be true to myself. And being true to myself (and my blog) means keeping my thoughts and vibes firmly focused on wellness, gratitude and all things happy and positive. YAY!
So that is what I shall be doing. I will of course keep you up to date with my progress and share with you any spiritual/law of attraction/personal growth type tidbits I come across that I find beneficial and that I hope will help you too.
All in all, this little chat of ours has helped me enormously, because it’s also made me realise that I need to apply the “to thine own self be true” motto (thank you Shakespeare) to every area of my life. No more doing things I think I “should” do and certainly no more doing things that don’t feel right to me. It’s taken me 35 years, but I now know what it feels like to be true to myself and I’m going with that feeling every time.
Thank you so much for listening. It’s always good to have a friend to talk to when you’re making big decisions. 🙂
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