“I think perfectionism is based on the obsessive belief that if you run carefully enough, hitting each stepping-stone just right, you won’t have to die. The truth is that you will die anyway and that a lot of people who aren’t even looking at their feet are going to do a whole lot better than you, and have a lot more fun while they’re doing it.”
I have a confession to make and it pains me to say this…
…I have no idea which day I’m up to on my second year of The Pollyanna Plan!
This isn’t because I haven’t been finding my daily reasons to feel glad/happy/joyful. I really, honestly have – ask any of the members of The Pollyanna Plan 30 Day Challenge Group on Facebook. It’s just that I’ve been busily posting my reasons in the group and haven’t been keeping up with the journal I began writing when I started The Pollyanna Plan 2 on 22nd February 2014.
I feel bad about this – I really do – and to begin with, I was posting in the group and then dutifully writing up my posts in my journal each day. But then I’d forget for a few days and have to spend time trying to find all my posts again to copy them up, which quite honestly was time consuming and not all that much fun.
I’m guessing this sounds ridiculous to many of you, but I’m a recovering perfectionist and trying to make things perfect is what I do and have always done. I remember as a child, wanting to re-do my homework if my handwriting wasn’t perfect or if I’d made the tiniest of mistakes, and even to this day I get a tense, knotty feeling in my stomach if I don’t do something perfectly and give it my absolute best.
So, catching up and writing out my glad/happy/joyful reasons for the past two weeks in my journal has been looming over me and has been pretty high on my mental to do list.
But today I made the decision not to do it and to abandon my journal for now. I’m posting my happy, grateful reasons daily and more importantly I’m FEELING the FEELINGS of happiness, appreciation and gratitude. And perhaps, most significantly…wait, in fact, it’s my reason for today…
Day “I have no idea” of The Pollyanna Plan 2:
Today I am very happy and grateful that I am giving myself permission to not have to do everything perfectly.
And I tell you what, I actually feel a huge sense of relief. 🙂
*The Pollyanna Plan 2 began on February 22nd 2014. I am writing down my reason to feel glad/happy/joyful every single day for the next 365 days and I’ll be sharing my favourite reasons here with you on my blog.*
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