When I began The Pollyanna Plan, 321 days ago, I chose to write my blog anonymously, as I felt it gave me the freedom to write my posts as authentically and as honestly as possible.
I guess what it boils down to is that I didn’t feel confident enough to write something so personal under my real name. In fact, the only people that know I write this blog are my Mum and my best friend, as I was worried that by telling others I would leave myself open to being judged, criticised or ridiculed in some way.
I know it may seem like I’m making a big deal about this, after all people write blogs that are much more inflammatory than my small offering, but over the past few years of chronic illness my self confidence has very much been eroded away. And besides, being a “Pollyanna” and choosing to always look on the bright side is often seen as a negative thing by many people. Go figure!
However, as The Pollyanna Plan has progressed, I’ve been feeling myself grow, not only in confidence and courage, but also in my sense of who I am. And perhaps more importantly, I have fallen in love with this magical, powerful new habit of gratitude, happiness and positivity, which I have created for myself and I want to be able to share it with as many people as possible.
And even though I am typing this post with slightly sweaty palms and feeling butterflies doing loop-the-loops in my stomach, I have now reached a point where I can say that I’m not sacrificing my happy, positive vibes for anyone. And if people don’t like me for my Pollyanna-ish attitude then that’s ok, because I’m the happiest I’ve ever been and I feel very empowered by that.
So, today is a momentous day, not only for The Pollyanna Plan, but also for me as a person. For today, I have begun to spread the word of my blog to people who know me personally. It’s just a small start for now – I included a link to my blog in a few Christmas cards I posted today – but I’m hoping that this is just the beginning.
AND, while I’m on a roll, I’d like to introduce myself properly to you all – my blogging friends who have supported me through this journey.
You may have guessed that Pollyanna is not my real name! My name is Nina – *waving a big, confident hello to you all.*
Oh and this is a photo taken of me on my 34th birthday in July this year, in Portugal where I live. There, I did it! It wasn’t so scary after all!! 😀
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Day 321, Reason 321: Today I am so happy, grateful and excited to at last have the confidence and courage to lift the veil and reveal who I really am. 😀
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44 days to go of The Pollyanna Plan
44 reasons to feel glad/happy/joyful to find….not long now!! 🙂