Something amazing occurred to me today. Something I’d never in a million years have thought I’d feel, let alone say out loud (or write in a blog post!)
And that is that I’m actually really very grateful to my illness.
You see, if my health hadn’t deteriorated, I’d still be living the life I was living – a life that seemed ok at the time, but not one that I truly loved or that brought me any real fulfilment.
I’d most likely still be trying to forge a career in marketing, even though it wasn’t anything I was passionate about and honestly, I’m so not suited to marketing! And I’d probably be stuck in a relationship that wasn’t right for me, as I used to be scared of ending up alone when all my friends were “settling down”. If you’d asked me then if I was happy with my life, I’d have answered yes, but I always felt like something was missing.
I used to think that the missing piece was something I needed to find, do or have, but I could never put my finger on it and I spent many hours agonising over it.
And now I know…
The missing piece was something I needed to BE, not find, do or have!
I needed to BE happy and truly grateful for my life, with all it’s ups and downs. I needed to follow my bliss and choose to do things that bring me joy. And I definitely needed to pay attention to my intuition and gut feelings, which I had ignored for many years. I just needed to BE myself.
So, even though these years of illness haven’t exactly been much fun, they have led me to such a fundamental realisation that I can’t help but feel grateful for.
I mean, if it wasn’t for my illness, I wouldn’t have been inspired to start The Pollyanna Plan and, in doing so, I’ve found the real me through this journey. I can honestly, truly say that I’ve never been happier than I am right now! 😀
Day 316, Reason 316: Today I am so very grateful to my illness for giving the real me the opportunity to emerge.
“Just when the caterpillar thought the world was over, it became a butterfly.”
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49 days to go of The Pollyanna Plan
49 reasons to feel glad/happy/joyful to find….not long now!! 🙂