Someone once told me that the secret to life is learning to let go. At the time, I thought I understood what they meant, but now I realise that I didn’t, not really.
Something happened last night – I won’t go into the details – that brought up a lot of hurt, anger and fear from the past for me. The situation itself caused me pain, but I was truly shocked at my strong emotional reaction. I thought I had dealt with these feelings long ago. It turns out that I hadn’t, at least not properly.
After a sleepless night (I managed about 3 hours) I was feeling pretty raw this morning, but I had the strangest feeling that all this had happened for a reason. Since the start of The Pollyanna Plan, I have been learning to put my trust in the Universe and believe that everything I need to heal and regain perfect health will be brought to me. No longer do I stress and desperately try to come up with solutions or “how tos,” or worry what to do next. And it is my belief that this situation was brought to me, in order to show me that I was still holding onto emotional stuff I needed to unburden myself of.
I’m a very sensitive person and take everything to heart, so, in the past, this kind of situation would have deeply upset and troubled me for weeks, causing my health to deteriorate rapidly, along with my happy feelings. But, I woke this morning with a steely resolution not to let it ruin all the good I have achieved in the past few months.
So, this morning, I played a little game. This may sound crazy, but bear with me! I looked at how I had reacted to this situation and the reasons why I had reacted in that way and then I imagined each of these emotions as a shape with a specific colour. Here’s the mad part – I physically picked up each of the imaginary shapes, placed them into an imaginary black bin liner, tied it up with a big bow, picked up the bag and hurled it out into the Universe, watching as it turned to dust and finally disappeared. I have an overactive imagination, I know, but it was a wonderful release and a great way for me to visualise letting go.
Day 81, Reason 81: Today I am so grateful for the situation for happening, for all it has taught me and for letting go of stuff that has been weighing me down.
And you know what? I have felt so much better for the rest of the day. In fact, I’d go as far as to say that I feel even more positive than before. Today has been a HUGE turning point for me.
284 days to go
284 reasons to feel glad/happy/joyful to find
£258.68 to raise for Save the Children
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Thank you from the bottom of my heart.
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